When I decided I was done chasing the “perfect body” and dieting myself into the ground, I experienced a period of a few months where I ate upwards of tens of thousands of calories every single day. I would eat carrot cake for breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks. I felt so defeated and unable to stop. My body had completely taken over and I was on autopilot. Even though my stomach was painfully full, I was still hungry - mentally hungry. My body kept asking for more. This[...]
binge eat·ing (noun) = the consumption of large quantities of food in a short period of time, typically as part of an eating disorder. I have openly shared my experience with binge eating and extreme hunger before, because I always get asked how I stopped binge eating. In this article, I want to give you my Top 3 Tips on how I ended the cycle of binge eating and found freedom and peace with food, so you can understand: …why your body drives you to eat large quantities of food …th[...]
Sometimes I wonder… what came first for me? Was it my anxiety or my eating disorder? I dove deep into researching the connection between mental health and disordered eating behaviors and it brought me a lot of clarity. I want to pass my knowledge on to you, so you can understand: How my anxiety caused me to self-sabotage with food as a coping mechanism Why certain coping mechanisms can help us survive How to cope with mental health concerns in recovery[...]
Binge eating (or extreme hunger in response to food deprivation) is one of the most isolating behaviors, because of the shame and guilt we experience afterwards. The most memorable experience for me was a Wednesday-evening in October 2016. It was about a month after my wedding – for which I had dieted harder than ever - and my husband was supposed to be gone for work. However, he came home early to surprise me and walked in on me sitting on the kitchen floor, surrounded by candy wrappe[...]
People always ask me how I stopped binge eating. It is one of the most vulnerable things to admit for me, but for years I struggled with binge eating in secret. I remember my first binge like it was yesterday. For about one year, I followed a strict diet of mostly plant-based foods and cold-pressed juices. I was exercising for up to 3 hours, 4-5 days per week and was in a big caloric deficit. One morning, I woke up and felt a very primal sense of hunger. Not only was my tummy rumbling, I[...]
If you have ever struggled with binge eating, you can probably relate: Your alarm goes off and you are in a haze. What happened last night? You need a few seconds to realize that you still feel sick to your stomach. Your eyes and face feel puffy and you don’t even want to look in the mirror and see the damage. Your guilt is weighing you down, before you even got out of bed. All you want to do is shut the blinds and sleep forever. You probably made a promise to yourself last night that you won[...]
Will food ever become my friend? This is going to be a tough blog post to write. I have never shared my full eating disorder story with anyone, except my husband. However, I want to be real and authentic with everyone and I have nothing to hide. I am not embarrassed or ashamed about my story with food anymore, I know it wasn’t my fault that things got so messy. It wasn’t me, who failed at dieting. It was my very first diet that failed me. So, here it goes, my relationship with food f[...]